FICTION FART#3: The Plight of the Bowerbird

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SUNDAY

Rain.

So much rain.

Too much rain.

No time for rain.

Must build bower.

Bower must be built.

Can’t procrastinate.

Can’t be late.

Late last year.

Very bad thing.

Missed opportunity.

No luck last year.

Learned lesson.

Will do better this year.

Must do better.

But sad now.

So much sadness.

Why so sad?

No time for sadness.

Positivity.

Be more positive.

Must be positive.

Rain is beautiful.

Makes things green.

Makes things grow.

Like self.

Am grown now.

Am new bird.

Been long year.

Lonely year.

No lady bird.

No baby birds.

No love.

But have grown.

Am strong.

Am attractive.

Am much better.

Stay positive.

Must stay positive.

Happy.

Be happy.

 

MONDAY

So exciting!

Building bower.

Working hard.

Staying busy.

Still raining.

Still muddy.

Wet.

Staying positive.

Staying happy.

Found blue bottle caps.

Blue bower this year.

Blue different.

So unique.

Crowd pleaser.

Will impress lady birds.

Feathers-crossed.

 

TUESDAY

MATING DANCE PRACTICE:

Hop. Hop. Hop.

Shuffle. Shuffle.

Hop. Hop.

Shuffle. Shuffle. Shuffle.

SCREAM. SCREAM. SCREAM. SCREAM.

Hop. Hop. Hop.

Shuffle. Shuffle. Shuffle.

HUGE SCREAM!!!

 

WEDNESDAY

Bower finished.

Home sweet home.

Very blue.

Blue bottle caps.

Blue straws.

Blue toothbrush.

Blue string.

Maybe blue overkill?

Maybe not?

Maybe just right?

Will see tomorrow.

Tomorrow big day.

Very big day.

Staying positive.

But difficult.

Worry set in.

Will sun shine?

Will dance stun?

Will see.

Stay positive.

Must stay positive.

Be happy.

Count blessings.

World good place.

Very good place.

So beautiful.

Life good, too.

Could be worse.

Much worse.

Could be sick.

Could be dead.

Am not those.

Am healthy.

Am alive.

Am lucky.

 

THURSDAY

MATING DANCE ATTEMPT # 1:

Hop. Hop. Hop.

Shuffle. Shuffle.

Hop. Hop.

Shuffle. Shuffle. Shuffle.

SCREAM. SCREAM…

 

IMPROVISE! IMPROVISE! IMPROVISE!

 

…choked.

Major fail.

Lady bird not impressed.

Lady bird gone.

Need practice more.

Screams no good.

Sound like puberty.

Too much hopping.

…so embarrassing.

So mad at self.

Want to quit.

Give up on life.

But can’t.

Not yet.

Sun shining.

So warm.

So hopeful.

One more try.

Give one more try.

Stay positive.

Must stay positive.

Be happy.

Be self.

Just be self.

True self.

 

FRIDAY

MATING DANCE ATTEMPT # 2:

Strut. Strut. Strut.

SQUAWK!!!

Shuffle. Shuffle. Shuffle.

STRUT. STRUT. STRUT.

SQUAWK!!!

SHAKE. SHAKE. SHAKE.

Hop. Hop. Hop.

Strut. Strut. SCREAM!

STRUT. HOP. STRUT. STRUT.

SQUAWK!!!

HUGE SCREAM!!!

HUGE SCREAM!!!

GINORMOUS SCREAM!!!!!!

 

Oh yeah…

Nailed it.

 

SATURDAY

Lady bird in bower.

Sleeping now.

Long night.

Restless night.

Wild night.

If know what mean.

Lady bird so pretty.

So lovely.

So in love!

Lady bird love blue toothbrush.

Thought was nice touch.

Love dancing, too.

Went so well!

So happy now!

Lady bird love me.

Wants baby birds.

Everything SO good.

Everything working out.

Everything perfect.

 

SUNDAY

Woke up alone.

No lady bird.

Lady bird gone.

Thought was joke.

But no joke.

Searched bower.

Searched forest.

Searched pond.

No dice.

No lady bird.

Lady bird gone.

Gone for good.

Thinking now.

All alone.

Alone in bower.

Wondering:

Why happen?

What wrong?

Too much blue?

Not enough wild?

Too much boring?

Not enough handsome?

So sad.

So confused.

Want to quit.

Give up on life.

But can’t.

Not yet.

Sun shining.

So warm.

So hopeful.

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“WHAT IF…” EXERCISE

What if I was nineteen and I lived in Ukraine? What if I wanted to be an accountant? What if I was going to school for it? What if I wasn’t getting good grades- not because I wasn’t a good student, but because my teachers had their hands dipped in governmental corruption? What if I sold my guitar so that I would have enough money to take a final? What if I needed to pass the final so I could transfer to a better school outside of Kiev? What if I didn’t pass? What if I was one answer short of passing? What if they wouldn’t let me see the test or the answers? What if all they told me was that I could try again in one month? What if they also told me that the cost of the test was going to go up because of its popularity?
What if that evening I was walking home with my girlfriend, Ivanna? What if we were super happy and super in love? What if I felt that she was all that I really had going for me? What if we unexpectedly got caught up in a violent conflict between Kiev military officers and the Right Sector? What if Ivanna and I hid behind a large tree as the fighting progressed onto the lawn and concrete steps of a government building? What if the Right Sector militants were pushing forward, hiding behind steel panels that had been welded onto construction scaffolding pipes? What if they were throwing Molotov Cocktails, starting little fires everywhere? What if some of them were trying to protect themselves by holding nothing but a car tire, or a plank of wood?
What if as I turned to Ivanna to tell her that we should run she got hit in the chest with a bullet? What if it went right through her? What if she fell backwards onto the sidewalk and by the time I put her head in my lap she was dead? What if I carried her about a hundred yards to a parking lot and laid her body on the ground behind an old bus?
What if some lady on the third level of an apartment building was waving a sheet in the air that had the words, “INSANE IN THE UKRAINE”, written on it with purple permanent marker? What if she screamed for me to take shelter with her? What if I tried to pick up Ivanna, but I couldn’t do it because I was too tired? What if in that moment a bullet hit the side of the old bus and ricochet into the flesh of my left thigh? What if I fell to the ground and started to hyperventilate? What if I forced myself to rip the bottom half of my T-shirt off to use as a bandage? What if I was losing too much blood, and in too much shock to move? What if I could see the legs of the militants moving toward us from under the bus? What if I huddled myself up to Ivanna and put my arms around her neck? What if I passed out with her cold cheek pressed against mine?

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That’s enough of that, I think.

I’m not going to pretend like I’m some expert on all of the political/military/educational/blahblahblah corruption that’s going on in Ukraine and in many other places around the world. I’m not. I read headlines and I’ve watched some documentaries, etc.
It takes a lot time and effort to stay informed and up-to-date on all of the worlds current affairs. At a certain point you start to wonder if being blissed out on ignorance is really such a bad thing.

We are human, however, so we tend to feel sad and mad when other innocent humans are being killed, mercilessly, for no reason whatsoever.

Anyway, I’m sitting here writing this post on an IPad. Im at my place of employment. I’m sitting at a nice table in a nice cafeteria. I just ate a pastrami sandwich that I bought with a plastic card that’s filled up with invisible money. So…yeah. You get what I’m trying to say here, right?

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